Rewiring the System

Mindfulness Then What

Here I am going out, yet again. This evening I am attending an event at the HUB in San Francisco, a genuine hub of trending Geekdom. Or I am standing in the anti room of a conference hall, or in the lobby of an auditorium, or at a coffee shop, and I hear people talking about Mindfulness! This arrives in many emails I get from such different groups, from Cosmology, science, politics, Artists, The Singularity, coders, foodies and friends about mindfulness. Being Mindful is the buzz word ‘of the day.’

It Is A Trip!

The ‘trip’ seems to be defined as: I have lost myself in a whirlwind and can’t remember who, where, or why I AM.


Mindfulness, or the process to remember where you are and what you are doing, thinking, feeling is putting the skin in the game. It is the beginning of being present in space at the intersection of the habit of time.


It’s Alarming How Loud The Silence Screams With No Warning

Color Me Surprised!

We have been misguided, we have been deceived, those of us who have retained a connection with the political oligarchy parading around as ‘democracy’ !  Iraq a Nine Trillion dollar drain on the global economy. If you think this does not effect you look at that pot hole in every street while carrying your bag of grossly expensive groceries while being unable to pay off your college debt.

The Republicans Have Lost Their Minds and the Tea Bags are More Destructive! Who elected these wing nuts? I feel like our leaders have been cut out of MAD Magazine!220px-Paul_Ryan_official_portraitRyan was defeated in the general election. Let’s shout in his big Alfred E. Neuman Ears that His Policies are not wanted!

This MAD mascot, Alfred E. Neuman like Paul Ryan has developed budget plans that propose privatizing Medicare for those currently under the age of 55,funding Medicaid and the Supplemental Nutrition Assistance Program through block grants to the states,and other changes. Ryan introduced these proposals in his spending plan for the House Budget Committee in April 2011 and in an updated version in March 2012 and again this week. He wants things to change for the WORST for All Americans!

How to sweep the bums out if voting serves no purpose?

Oh My God ! Let’s rise against the push to turn back Progress.

I am now living in heart ache that the global population will be cut by more than 10% in the next 10 years because of Republican anti human being as well as anti middle class practices. My Human Family is becoming a Lost Cause!

Monsanto has placed a rider on some generally desired legislation to be able to engineer foods with no responsibility for the effects on the human systems. Monsanto Is A Monster that Obama has allowed to Thrive while he and his family eat organic food.

The Fracking shoots water under the water table and is poisoning our global water supply so that the privatization of water policy that has been in place since 1974 will charge you for water! Opponents point to potential environmental impacts, including contamination of ground water, risks to air quality, the migration of gases and hydraulic fracturing chemicals to the surface, surface contamination from spills and flowback and the health effects of these.

How did we The People allow this to happen? We stopped being in touch what we think and feel and live out of a inner death.  I hope to help all people stay with themselves as a living Human Being to care about loving themselves sufficiently that they are able to really know self care. The truth is undeniable, unless you figure this out you and the entire global families will be contaminated.

What is the Japanese government telling the people who lived around the nuclear  explosion in March 2011?  On yesterday’s news The government said that the land is being cleaned up! In two years it will be ready for planting rice again. Imagine that! Russia was more honest when they told the people that the area will never be inhabitable again. Imagine with me for a moment that Russia is more honest than Japan!

The Chernobyl disaster is widely considered to have been the worst nuclear power plant accident in history, and is one of only two classified as a level 7 event on the International Nuclear Event Scale (the other being the Fukushima Daiichi nuclear disaster in 2011).  The battle to contain the contamination and avert a greater catastrophe ultimately involved over 500,000 workers and cost an estimated 18 billion rubles. The official Soviet reports long-term effects such as cancers and deformities are still being accounted for.

I have turned to help people connect with their own subtlety so they can be more productive and at inner peace and thus have more chutzpah.I create a center of quiet for people under stress to fill with their stories. It is important to have a chance to listen to yourself by sharing what you are thinking and feeling.


I work to serve to reteach people how to breathe, which has bigger implications on our daily lives than we imagine. Through short workshops targeted to the individual or group I enable people’s inner core and strength by encourage single-pointed focus.

Do not continue to cover up what you are really feeling. Get involved in returning our country and our family of nations leaders back to serving US!  Obama IS a great failure!

Happy Now? There Is More To Living Than Being Alive: (Coding)


Time To Upgrade Your Emotional Operating System And Find Out That There Is More To Living Than The Digital On/Off Codes


Find a comfortable position in your seat

and take a slow deep breath.

Look around you and see where you are in the room.

Look on either side of your seat. Say hello to your neighbors on both sides and in front and behind you.

Take a moment to realize that you are safe here.   You are with a trustworthy and knowledgeable person leading this group.

You have chosen to come here because you are interested in Upgrading Your Emotional Operating System with all the implications of this process.

Now let’s start:  Start with a few easy breaths Out and In.  Just listen to the air going in, then a moment of stasis, circulating with grace, then out in an easy release. Allow yourself to feel relaxation as the is air going out.  In with all the energy you need and out to relax. You can close your mouth and just breathe in and out through your nose. (Take a moment to clear your nasal passages if you need to).

As you breathe in feel the energy coming in from the surrounding air as the ‘Oxygen’, that active ingredient in air, brings you energy you need to function . As you breathe out send that oxygen to the places in your body that are in tension. Relax with your out breath, a little bit more with each breath. You are a living being which by your own power of thought, you send the air to go to the places where you are tight. Change the habit of holding tension in your diaphragm.

Find an easy natural rhythm. Find YOUR Natural relaxed Rhythm.  Each one of us here has our own individual drum beat, One Two, or One Two and Three, Or perhaps One Two Three Four.  Find the song in your heart, your rhythm and let out a slow sigh.

Now Breath in and find that you, yourself, are comfortable in your seat. Say Welcome Home and breath out and let yourself relax. Let us take a minute to Just Take in air and let it out and with the out release out a little more tension.

The action of ‘breathing out’ works to remove  the dark particles that are stuck on your insides. Breath out the not needed stuff. There is a science fact about this, but we can put that investigation on hold for the time being, and use this time to breathe in and out.

The next breath you take IN, feel the sense of lightness moving across your forehead and down your arms and legs.  As you breath OUT allow the action of your breath to move down your body and remove the tension in your limbs.

As you breath in and out, doing this easily, you are allowing the crashing of the air molecules within your body to break apart and to circulate the free electron ion into being, bringing you energy.

The next breath you direct your breath-thought to feeling your body on the seat. You are strong and safe and in-touch with your body getting the oxygen it needs to have energy and health in both body and mind.

Feel the Oxygen go to your eyes. Close your eyes and feel all the tension from the usual visual pointed focusing action slip away. As you breath in, allow the curtain of your eyelids to droop down.  Let your eye muscles stop the sizzling seeing pulse. Close your eyes. What do you see on the screen? Take a minute and look at what is projected on the screen of your closed eyelids.

Blink a few times. Now let’s do the clock with our eyeballs. First look as far UP as possible without moving your chin then look as far DOWN, then to Three O’clock and over to Nine O’clock. Then repeat Top, Bottom, Left, Right.  Now start at 12 O’clock and go around, now stopping at 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, and return to 12.  If you want repeat. Now go in reverse from 12 to 11 and so forth back to 12.

Check your breathing. Relax and find your rhythm return.  Close your eyes and feel your body comfortable in your seat.

What season is it today? When you close your eyes what color do you see?  What are the smells of this season? What do you smell now.

Close your eyes again and imagine you are in paradise. Where is your personal paradise? Is it out in nature or in a styling designer living room?

One way to understand what part tension has played in our everyday living is to see that our ability to speak from our inner self has been silenced. From the seat of our emotions we have lost the search engine to the dictionary that would be able to have a conversation, one to one, with ourselves. This is a tragic loss, this loss of diction! So many people are without words for our emotions.

Everyone in this room has experienced “dehumanizing” in one way or another. Both from software or hardware that seems to diminish our ability to know how we feel about our place in the computer world. How can we communicate with others and function effectively in this on off fast paced world. More often than we would like to admit many have an actual deficiency in understanding, processing, and /or describing our emotions.

How do I feel?  Technology seems often to create new boundaries between people. Our industry was supposed to make communication easier and erase old boundaries

Consider this time we share here as a time to tune our individual inner harp at the intersection of Light and Sound. This is a symbol of the representation of the First Singularity as a Circle: Breathing In and Out.

Diabetes Is Alcoholism

I don’t know why Men with Diabetes flutter toward me seeking my attention? Diabetes is an addiction! An addiction to suicide, injuring themselves and anyone who gets close. Why these hampered butterflies flock over a field of imagined sugary substance is a sick sign of our times.

Addiction baggage has nothing to do with the hot womanly fiery flame that radiates in a gender dance relationship with my heart. Day in and day out, over and over again, from the rocket scientist I adored for more than five years to another who I gave my time and attention both have diabetes and hypertension.  Men with the behaviors and same medical difficulties and fists full of medications instead of inner change. Oh Steve, you are such a good man and I do miss you… but I am so finished with guys with Diabetes! The need for control stifles my flame and is oppressive to my kindling.

My Ex-husband is a practicing alcoholic. I had 20+ years in that cloud! I had to join the wives of alcoholics 12 Step program in Phoenixville, PA, to get the energetic torque to rocket into the starry milky mother and safety. I needed real torque to escape! By the way, Torque is the rotational or ‘Twisting’ effect of a force, a moment of force that is both a sensation and visible.  Torque is measured as an equivalent straight line force multiplied by the distance from the Axis Of Rotation! VaaaRrrrrrBoom …..feel the SI unit Newton-Meter, (Nm) or Imperial Unit Foot Pound of power resistance to the static heft to build up enough pressure to move forward. Change is a struggle. Change is hard work

I could not get away from the controlling abusive relationship with out the community of understanding that the group of local woman who where in the same cup of hot water as I found myself floating like the proverbial Frog. Ya’all know the story of the Frog who was in a pot of water that sat on a fire. The frog did not notice how hot the water was getting until he was Cooked.  That frog was me. I was cooked and marginalized and finally physically beaten bloody in his alcoholic haze. It was in the hospital when the detectives really brought the point out. They said that I was so badly beaten that if I did not get out of the state he would come back and finish me off. Yes That Is What I Was Actually Told! That is how hard it is to change!  Finland Beckoned: Put me on Ice: I have a deep past inheritance of a continuation of consciousnesses.

I remember dressing like this out in the reindeer herds

What the circle in the Twelve-Step Program  gave me was a Palm Tree trajectory. I was removed from the abuse by a Poet Saint who helped me pack up and drove me to Sunny California! He saved my life and I will always be in his radius of loving attention. He supported my 12 step practice.

The 12 Steps are a set of guiding principles, accepted by members as ‘spiritual principles,’  outlining a course of action for recovery from the addictions that allow abusive personal habits and actions or other behavioral problems that attract like to like.

I am here in Berkeley California the home of the Chochenyo/Huchiun band of the Ohlone people. The Indian Rock, the Shellmounds, and Palm Trees support my feet as I strive to build a new life.

This pit in the surface of a rock at Indian Rock Park is typical of those used by Ohlone Indians to grind acorns.

My Heart is fully opened to flow with the continuous stream of a body within connections to indigenous peoples. I have great respect and gratitude to the struggles and smart ingenuity they exhibit to have built the Tools modern society use as they trudge the very rocky path forward. To couple into a loving family, we need to LOVE one another fully and simply.

Love One Another Is The Letter Of The Law


It Must Be True

Is Depression on the rise? It ought to be, if we face the kind of self-world we have created unto ourselves without seeing the way out of it.

Yes, if we actually face the full extent of the horror of this reality we ought to be VERY depressed. It would be a sentient, sensible and reasonable response.

I am wondering about the ones who are not ‘depressed’ by it !!! With what excuses they pursue their karma dodging.

So, feeling depressed is a very good starting point, a honest, genuine one. Then we, you and I, need to realize that our depression won’t get us anywhere. It is helplessly reactive. Rather, we need to realize how we are completely account-able in Cosmic Tension for our ‘self-world’, and the creative potential that comes with this realization. It is time to say It Must Be True. It is time to get cracked and let some of the horrible slime slither out of cracked and exploded places in our skin. It is time to let in the light of life and wake up to who we have become to one another.

Then we need to discover and master the most potent human resource there is, that:

Thinking frames what ‘IS’  each one of us as a self-world. This means, we can also wipe the slate clean intelligently and within reason in order to beget the self-world that manifests the Highest Good of all humanity together as one. We can stop being mean to each other. We can stop hurting each other with harsh hurting words. We can start to care.

I have been fighting cancer for almost two years and in that time the people in my family circle, the ones I would expect to be caring and to care for me have not. I believe is it a societal dysfunction. I believe that all around the United States there are people suffering who do not have a loving arm around their shoulders to give strength and comfort. I send out this missive in the hopes that some people will extend a little effort toward the people in your world.


Sad Truth

Actions speak Louder than Words.  I know this, since words are just warm air passing lips. Actions, on the other hand, move mountains and bring hearts together.  The True Gracious Character never uses language as a weapon that draws blood. True Character never speaks in a manner that sends sounds out toward another person that will Punch Pain into that persons Heart. Heart Ache is an attack on the very core of life. The increasing number of heart attacks in one manner are a collection of attacks until the organ just is so punched it gets broken.


Integrity never Injures. I need to understand the collective underpinning of that, which is “we are all in the same boat”.  (If this url is not hyperlink it is beyond my computer skills. I guess you will have to cut and paste!)

That it is ridiculous my watching me watching you trying to have your own boat. We are not going together anywhere. No part of this Me Me Mine is useful to either of us. I now must start rowing again since I seem to be a traitor of the normal ‘Me First’, Schadenfreude! I am rowing toward the collective to contact and connect with ship jumpers who are feeling the welcome to row all together now.

Clean your ears and listen: How does one prove that light travels faster than sound?

Easy: Observe how some people appear bright until one hears them speak..!

Character Never Draws Blood, Character Never Punches You In The Heart

I absolutely LOVE Kucinich!


Murder / Death, What Is The Difference

I have been thinking about the pressure and pain that pushes a person to the edge. I have been thinking about the seeds of sadness which are the kernel of stepping out of the Human Body into another series of choices. It is like walking on the skipping stones I tossed just down the hill from Harper’s Ferry dock.

This is the way this place looked when I was there

This is where John Brown captured the attention of the nation like no other abolitionist or slave owner before or since. He was killed by the Marines for his effort to free five men who happened to have a different color skin. A large group of people killed a few because those people were treated as possessions. This end of life happened for what reason?  It was Murder!

Walk Down To The Edge Of The River Where The United States Civil War Started

On 22 July 2011, a mass shooting took place at the AUF‘s summer camp, where 650 young people were staying.

The Red Circle Is The Island Camp

A young 33 year old man who spent 13 or more hours every day of the week “trained” for the attacks he carried out in Norway last summer using the computer game Call of Duty: Modern Warfare and World of WarCraft. Anders Behring Breivik, arrived on Utøya dressed as a police officer and told those on the island that he was there for security reasons following the explosions in Oslo which took place a few hours before. He then began shooting at individuals, continuing until the police arrived one hour after the first alarm call. The suspect immediately surrendered. Combined, the attacks in Oslo and Utøya, (This island is largely forested, with some open spaces), left 77 dead, with 69 killed on the island, 55 of whom were teenagers. What is strange about this country is the strong racist mentality in the general population.

I delight in the Glowing Flower Of My Life

Lately I have been listening to the talk of life and death. I hear in the undercurrent that people talk more about their refusal to imagine mortality. It is a cycle of beginning with birth and ending with death.  Is the term used to describe the cessation of all biological functions an end? Is there more to the end than we know?  Not thinking about mortality can surface in the strange mental illness and murderous reaction into action. Knowing that there is an end to our mortal being makes every thought, emotion, and act sweeter and a richer experience. For some people the way to find that moment of intense richness is in violence. Choose to make the hard choices in life and enjoy the ride.


My War With Nature

Walk in the world with a soundless footstep, and please leave no foot print.

It is midnight of our souls and I ask you to look around in the darkened landscape and see with clarity using the inner light, the search light to guide us on our way. I ask that we hear all the laws intersecting with your opened heart.  I ask us to live simply with the gentleness of a deer.  I tell you that I feel the war inside my very being, My Human Being.

Today, I was cleaning out the bottom of my closet where I had stored my many pocket books, purses, shoulder bags, and wallets.  In a laundry basket style ‘Rubber Maid’ blue handled strong and sturdy square.  I have saved more bags than I will ever really need. I have one of each of the many stripes of Jacobs robe. Under the weight and burden of more than I need, I have lost the simplicity of the deer.

This is my Spring Cleaning First World Problem. Old Stuff: My handbags, my shoes, my shirt, my jeans, my trousers,  my home, my town, my state, my country, my race, my religion! Is there a connection to ourselves with what is more serious? I am really ready for a real spring cleaning. Today it is a trust issue. Do I trust that I will present myself well if I have less choices? Am I frightened by the little things that I thought I had overcome or put out of the way?

I am weighted down, over run, and over come with the sheer mass and number of my possessions. Even though each week I deliver a bag of clothing and stuff to people who might want what is extra to me.  I take bags of things to the goodwill collection, yet I seem to have more than I actually use.  I have so many articles of clothing that I love yet I don’t wear. I can only wear one shirt or jeans at a time.

I can’t sort my stuff alone. I need a friend to sit on the bed or in an easy chair to keep me company and give me their thoughts on what I should keep and what should I toss.  Tonight, after going through the container of handbags, I am only able to send one into the sack that I will send on its way away.  This is my continuing war with my nature.

Last night I followed the half mile wide  more than six hour path of a tornado moving at about forty miles an hour along the great planes. I listen to the radio warning people to get out of harms way and under ground. I watch the pictures of the TV feed of the destruction of the possessions of so many households.  All the stuff that defined the lifestyle of families lies scattered turned into rubble. I sit here in the relative safety away from the storms looking at the much loved things turned into toothpicks by the spring cleaning vengeance of Mother Nature!

I can hear the defining sucking silence resounding with earth shattering vigor.

Feeling The Fear

I can remember time after time living out of the deep fear of rejection. I did not know at that moment when my head crested out of the Birth Canal that the stench of rejection was going to surround me with the trail of the sad fairy dust. It was a hazy more dust than star dust It was a trail and it was a foggy banner proceeding me when ever and where ever I go. To this day it comes calling. Welcome to my life.

I sat up in the perambulator covered in a creamy knit cap and a coverlet, bumping down the concrete slabs in Mount Holly NJ where my father was stationed. We were on the way to the small grocery store. I had a vivid image of the small jar of baby-food Blubby, lubby.. rubbery corn-starchy and very sweetVanilla pudding. There was the splashing half sitting and half standing bath in the kitchen sink with beautiful beech wood cabinets

You’re the one desire, but your love is burning like fire
Jah soul, jah man
Connect – R pon di place
Rapping on..

I need some water, cause I’m getting so dry
Your love is burning like the sun in July
When you put your arms around me you raise the temperature high
Cause your love is burning like the sun in July.

Sing it UP!

Burning, just like the sun glowing,mmm
Shining, just like the love we have
Let me feel it, I wanna touch your skin, yeah
Let me kiss it, I wanna taste the sin,yeah

Sing it UP!

I need some water, cause I’m getting so dry
Your love is burning like the sun in July
When you put your arms around me you raise the temperature high
Cause your love is burning like the sun in July.(x2)

Yo listen..
Burning, just like the sun glowing,mmm
Shining, just like the love we have
Let me feel it, I wanna touch your skin, yeah
Let me kiss it, I wanna taste the sin,yeah

Let me be what I need to be cause when the sun is shining you look so sexy, yeah
I wanna touch ya pon di face pon di whole body
But your skin is burning lïke the sun,baby(x2)

So i gues I need some water, cause I’m getting so dry
Your love is burning like the sun in July
When you put your arms around me you raise the temperature high
Cause your love is burnin like the sun ïn July.

I remember just before my third birthday that none of my family had the ability at telepathy yet I could read and hear the thoughts their minds were generating. This truth that they could not understand me as I was able to understand them caused me to sob inconsolably. It seared into my heart that somehow I was not constructed with the same parts as the people who walked half asleep in my house. We lived in Mount Holly for some many years until my father fully expressed his unhappiness that my mother allowed herself to GET pregnant. Like ‘it’ doesn’t take two?

My tiny ears had to listen to the angry stuff directed at me because I was born, for coming into this world and breaking up their marriage. My little strawberry blond silk did not protect me as I wondered How I Got Here? At this moment I realized that most of my every day living was less than real and more to reel to reel.


It Is Spring Equinox – The Time of  The Cosmic Fire  We share the start , knowing very well that a great opening is in the process of this important Great 
“Labor to keep alive in your breast  that little spark of celestial fire calledConscience .”
 ~ George Washington,  The Rules of Civility, Circa 1748



“All” Life Is Suffering

I live in an ideal temperate zone. I am “Riding” a three-wheeled third world conveyance in a fast lane turbo charged First World rocket ship (conveyance).  Financially I live on half below the poverty line, about three dollars a day to supply all my human survival needs. I live in a Wide country where there are an amazing diversity of transportation options. There are skates, skateboards, scooters, a variety of two and three wheeled options, though the best three-wheeled car is no longer in production! Along almost every road you see a wide spectrum of trucks and cars. Cars in every price bracket and of many colors move from place to place.

In many cities and the inhabited countryside most people choose to walk from place to place. In the great cities people do not own cars, yet around the world, it seems that the bourgeoisie define themselves by the shape and color of their car. Lifestyle Is a very trying ride indeed!

How are you actually exercising your choice? Are you walking, running, riding, being driven, or driving? Are you a prisoner of the marketing flow? Or do you find yourself being swept along by the force of the mass? We actually are flowing along like water never daunted by the rocks and slumps in the path. In a life of grace, with gratitude for the gift of life are you driving a luxury car?

Have you chosen to use out dated and outmoded connivances like a carriage on a freeway or sleigh on a sunny sandy beach?

The time to look at transportation choices raises questions as to the authenticity of your thoughtful attention about your how you are functioning as a member of the totality of all human beings on this globe.

Figuring out how you fit into the system reflected by what you use to get around from here to there where ever you are traveling, participates in the practical way insight into some meaning of your life as you fit into the greater unity of Life.

“All Life Is Suffering” is a current typical mantra banner clouding our understanding about our momentary here and now. Even in our happy moments there is this painful  background noise. What is this “suffering” publicized in the shinny clay-coated fashion pages and other popular magazines, books, TV and Movies? Perhaps it is desiring more than what we really need to live well and prosper? Time is the new currency.

‘The Eight Fold Path:

The Wheel form is often used to represent the Noble Eightfold Path

All eight elements of the Path begin with the word “right”, which translates the word samyañc (in Sanskrit) or sammā (in Pāli). These denote completion, togetherness, and coherence, and can also suggest the senses of “perfect” or “ideal”. ‘Samma’ is also translated as ‘wholesome’, ‘wise’ and ‘skillful’. The Noble Eightfold Path of The Buddha, who described it as the way leading to the cessation of suffering, “dukka”, and the achievement of self knowing and self-awakening. It is used to develop insight into the true nature of phenomena (or reality) and to eradicate greed, hatred, and delusion.

The Noble Eightfold Path is often represented by means of the dharma wheel (dharmachakra), whose eight spokes represent the eight elements of the path.”


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