Rewiring the System


If a thought grows out of the workings of the brain,  then a Conviction is the guidance that grows out of the Heart. Integrity is a conviction of self esteem working with in a family and out to a community and our Globe, this blue pearl.

It is not a clever argument, a conviction is a firm belief.  I believe that most often it is not verbally sharing a belief but the very living integrity that moves others into action. As a parent I had first hand proof that it was the way I moved, spoke, treated others, and lived my every day life that was the great teacher. It is my actions that I impressed on those under my care how to behave both in times of joy and those many times of struggle.


Just a few days ago while I was leaving an appointment I was told that she was glad I talked with her since I always leave her with a smile on her face! That could be none other than the conviction of joy in my heart that rounds out the sounds my words try to convey.

Conviction is a seed for understanding the infinite amount of time and energy each of us have to complete the thought, contained in a word and that string of words that brings people close to one another. The evidence is in the action that always speaks louder than words, thought without words we would all be miming with painted faces and stripped leggings.

I remember with great fondness the time I drove my dearest teacher and monks around on their errands. I would sometimes have a group of monks in my car on the way to the grocery store. There were times when visiting monks came to see my teacher and I was asked to take them window shopping. Most often they wanted to go to the poor part of town and look around in the thrift stores in that community. My teacher liked to go to great malls in various towns around where he lived.  People who view their lives as Spending Time, learn by watching the way true meditating servants of the common good live, is a great adventure and gift in itself. This also taught me to watch how people mirror my behavior.

There were no words shared but the conviction that was taught, is to always want to see every part of the world with no fear.  I walked with conviction born out of inner integrity where few choose to shop.

In fact, one day, long ago I was in such a very thrifty thrift store with three or four travelers when I found a big packing box of High Loft European Goose Down ‘Famous Label’ with the embossed coat of arms,  (Ralph Lauren), king size pillows for fifteen dollars each! What a great surprise. The next day I went to Bloomingdales and found the regular size of this same pillow for three hundred dollars each! I guess it was not being afraid to window shop deep within the wrong side of the tracks! Probably these pillows were not sold earlier because the usual clients did not know what they were or their exorbitant usual cost.

The conviction in my heart is: we are all worthy people! No matter how much stuff we have or how much it cost.


Occupy Wall Street 2012

I watched with Horror, the brutality of the Police on the people protesting the United States Oligarchy at the Occupy Wall Street site at the square in NYC this evening. How can our elected officials act against our very own American Constitution?

Almost 200 protesters arrested TODAY!  The Mayors, the Governors and on up the elected ladder MUST be told that the People want Economic Equity. Change Will Happen. Can our current Government be part of the Healthy Future of our country and all global economies? I sat and watched first hand the brutality in Oakland and have posted pictures I took Thanksgiving day 2011 …. And Now Am I More Than A Regular Baby Boomer Citizen? I am a droplet, a tear drop, in the river of life. Who among those reading this are comfortable being uncomfortable? As Vivaldi eloquently sang out : When I die and go to heaven if you are not there I will not go in…. Stand with me and lets make the world we want.

  1. Occupy Wall Street : Why Won’t They Leave?

    Wed, 5 Oct 2011

    …by the banks on the continues today and will be we don’t. all rights we are the 99 % of the back and want of 1%. You start thinking a little…

    We are the 99% found at 0:53

  2. Occupy Wall Street Movement Goes National

    Sun, 9 Oct 2011

    occupy Wall Street movement it’s gain momentum across the country with protests breaking out more than a dozen cities Saturday. ABC Cecilia…

    Occupy Wall Street Movement found at 0:00

  3. Occupy Wall Street Movement Told to Move

    Thu, 13 Oct 2011

    …Bloomberg has ordered police to clear them out at daybreak. ABC Cecili…

  4. Occupy Wall Street : Fordham Professor Explains the Movement

    Wed, 5 Oct 2011

    …and it is. Not just New York City other cities are getting on board this occupy Wall Street movement . But the question is does this group had…

    Occupy Wall Street Movement found at 0:12

  5. Protesters ‘Occupy’ Congress

    Tue, 11 Oct 2011

    occupy Wall Street movement was on the move today building strength and for the first time taking aim at individuals of the top of powerful…

    Occupy Wall Street Movement found at 0:00

  6. Occupy Wall Street : Protests on 1-Year Anniversary

    Mon, 17 Sep 2012

    …of the stock exchange. And down here you can officers are checking ID…

  7. Occupy Wall Street Through the Mail

    Fri, 28 Oct 2011

    …offers and others Occupy Wall Street just offseason But Occupy Wall Street got me. These getting out in his is there. Occupy Wall

    Occupy Wall Street Movement found at 4:12

Heart Breaking: Body And Soul

I cant get you out of my Heart!  My heart is sad and lonely and I can’t get you out of my mind either! Why am I stuck? Something must be wrong with my love Personal Navigation Divice, GPS!. How often do both, you and I,  struggle with unrequited desires for affection? Lately I have either unwanted pushed on me unwanted demands for a certain response or reply in interactions…. Or, though it is hard to conceive, that no contact is offered from the who and where I want it ever so much. I am sure I am not the only one  who from time to time wants to have attention, to want to have your attention.

Bring On My EPIC Fulfillment

Valentinos (male) or Valentina (female)

This morning  had a long conversation about the process and effort to maintain a relationship. There are times when the very person I want to have my back has left the building! My heart has not heard the door slamming.  I am hearing a tune that is out of rhythm with the curent song in a certain dance of the genders. I feel an actual ache in my physical being in the area of where my heart is in my body! OH My Aching Heart!

My overall well-being, including both emotional and physiological components, are affecting my heart health.

What is amazing is that this is a lesson learned over and over distinctly different with every person I let into my life.  As a person in the Human Race, I know we share this emotion. My heart is sad and lonely…

Why haven’t you seen it?


I Want Your Ugly

Earlier today, via a phone call, I checked in with my BFF, who moved from our enclave in the Valley ‘land of lawns’ to Texas around the same time I found myself in California.  Best Friends Forever takes time and is built on total trust.

Anyhow, I was telling her about my real and continuing ‘deep thinking’ interest in what is turning so many truly high achieving computer coders to take their lives. I am questioning Suicide from today precipice view. It is easy to tell her what I am thinking and working on since she never measures what I am doing against what she is doing. Measuring another person is different than judging since judging completely turnes off the listening apparatus where as measuring is listening deeply to find the place to insert yourself where you do not belong.

We have a complete openness and a genuine interest in one another. It is each as we each are. We are on the Ride Together!

Today, I am, among other thoughts, feelings, and stuff things, wondering how sad it is and I am that Lady Gaga did not get a Grammy last night or this year, since she is a true genius. She is not stuck in the past!  She speaks about the future. She leads to the time where the touch of your hair, the smell of your truth, creates the tasty future where we support each other since the truth is that we exist together.

I Want Your Love! Your psycho is truth is action… You and me, She and I, continue to care for our individual uniqueness.

Lady Gaga is on the Edge Of Glory WITH You. She touches each one of her audience with deep empathy of what we have had to carry and put up with in our lives as we all together move into a intelligently created future. Lady Gaga is our generations Dolly Parton, with all the driving sense of community asking each of to expand our creativity out on to our street directly from our integrated hearts. These two woman might be sad but they ask us to use their music as a background toward creating magic in our own lives. Never sinking into low self esteem of any one of the tear jerking choices.  Their songs are anthems od self worth… This is who I am and you had a chance…

That is the end of my rant!

Back to the phone call earlier today: My BFF loves Bull Terriers which are too Alpha for a pet.  I cannot imagine living with one.  I come from a long line of Poodle People smart enough to want an ice cube in their water dish.

Our differences are deeper than that though neither of us lives our lives out of someone else’s intersection of time and space. We are stoned on love so we just never fight. I am only me and she is only herself. What is wonderful is that we reach out to one another from the  grounded poised human place of value. She wants my Ugly.

My BFF says that a person she knows spends so many hours coding that his family is worried about him. When he is asked about getting human contact, he says, I am checking in with other coders around the country and world. Computer contact has no real place for feelings. How can you type an emotion. Anf after years of this state of digital communication you are no longer in touch with what you are really feeling. What is going on?

Classification and external resources

The Suicide by Édouard Manet 1877-1881
ICD10 X60X84
ICD9 E950
MedlinePlus 001554
eMedicine article/288598
MeSH F01.145.126.980.875

Suicide (Latin suicidium, from sui caedere, “to kill oneself”) is the act of intentionally causing one’s own death. Suicide is often committed out of despair or attributed to some underlying mental disorder, such asdepressionbipolar disorderschizophrenia,alcoholism, or drug abuse.[1] Pressures or misfortunes such as financial difficulties or troubles with interpersonal relationshipsoften play a significant role.[2]

Over one million people die by suicide every year. The World Health Organization (WHO) estimates that it is the 13th leading cause of death worldwide[3] and the National Safety Council rates it sixth in the United States.[4]It is a leading cause of death among teenagers and adults under 35.[5][6] The rate of suicide is far higher in men than in women, with males worldwide three to four times more likely to kill themselves than females.[7][8] There are an estimated 10 to 20 million non-fatal attempted suicides every year worldwide.[9]

Views on suicide have been influenced by broader cultural views on existential themes such as religionhonor, and the meaning of life. The Abrahamic religions traditionally consider suicide an offense towards God due to the belief in the sanctity of life. It was often regarded as a serious crime and that view remains commonplace in modern Western thought. However, before the rise of Christianity, suicide was not seen as automatically immoral in ancient Greek and Roman culture. Conversely, during the samurai era in Japan,seppuku was respected as a means of atonement for failure or as a form of protest. Sati is a Hindu funeral practice, now outlawed, in which the widow was expected to immolateherself on her husband’s funeral pyre, either willingly or under pressure from the family and society.[10] In the 20th and 21st centuries, suicide in the form of self-immolation has been used as a medium of protest, and the form of kamikaze and suicide bombings as a military or terrorist tactic. (wikipedia)

I am thinking about hackers, coders, and developers who are trying to figure out what and how they feel. Webcam and texting can be really unkind even unknowingly. Humans who have the use of their thumbs need to get up and actually touch one another often.

I was at a conference waiting for the speaker to take the stage. Sitting next to me was a good looking geeky guy tapping away on his android at lightening speed with his thumbs.  At the point where I could interrupt, I asked him how he uses his thumbs to such lightening speed. He stops and shows me exactly which part of the side of his thumb gives him the greatest dexterity! Immediately as soon as I got home I took out my snips and cut my thumb nails so I could, even for a short time, replicate double thumb contact.

You cannot kiss my soft lips with your texting tapping thumbs. I cannot let you know I understand by tapping back. Don’t get me wrong, I am very glad to be in the forward moving digital age as somewhat tech savvy, but Face Time trumps Facebook.

Just a heart beat away fromperfection

RULE YOUR LIFE FROM YOUR HEART: Just a Heart Beat Away From Perfection





Connect To It

Posted in Uncategorized by rewiringangel on September 13, 2010
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Stop and think, it is time to make a connection. The thought places the emphases on which word which changes the meaning. What does it mean: ‘I AM that I AM’ which is so different from ‘i am THAT i am’. One is a reflection and an example of the essence of particles in infinite movement in flow of good deeds or am I The Highly regarded ego which is central and the particles come from and back to that personal self. The Biggest Egos consider that they are not judged by their actions. Some people say a lot of things but have poor follow through.

The family is a perfect place to practice the elements of actions in relationship.

I Need to be able to face my fears or they will continue to follow and drag me down. My vice is some sort of attraction toward those who have little respect in relation to their selves and consequently to me. I will not make this difficult to understand. I no longer want to get less than flow. I will allow the good and the helpful kind thoughtful to surround me by allowing my true and natural graciousness to guide my thoughts, emotions, actions and words. It is confidence in joy in the active state of kindness, sharing and a strong grounding in the moral truth. Honor your Mother and Father. You may not know how to make a bridge because you have not been sufficiently connected to your natural animal quality of love.

I heard a man say the I Am that I Am, with the small idea of ‘that’ and a big sense of self importance.

I went to get some eggs at the market and there was just one dozen of the only sort I buy. I asked the dairy man if there were any other dozens in the back since 4 of the eggs in the carton were cracked. I asked when a new order would arrive. He tells me that the eggs I want are not ordered by the store but delivered by the farm twice a week and they, the store takes what is sent. The increments of dozens are gaged to prevent waste. I tell him I understand yet he continues as though I was going to give him an argument. I do not have an argument receptor to hook, both energy and time, to dissipate in the late afternoon. No amount of talking would get a fresh dozen of my good quality eggs delivered at this time for my use. He does not get that I have no problem with this fact. He kept telling me that there is connection I ask is there a connection? He looks at me in some sort of surprise and says,’ I will give you this last dozen at half price. When you are in the check out tell them my name and that I said to do this.’ So I am very glad. It is the natural grace of taking what comes along with the warm heart to see what the facts are and where if any movement can be used in a win win way. He got to have the last box taken away and I got to have some eggs to eat and some eggs to use for my hair and face. More about this later.
I am off to the Monday Morning Radiation. I am in a hurry to get there on time.